Embrace It.

I was compelled to write this blog post after reading a post on a similar topic by the esteemed Galina Krasskova in her lovely blog called the "Ganglieri's Grove" under the title "Loving Savage Gods" which can be found in the following link.

https://krasskova.wordpress.com/?s=loving+savage


If you have accepted the long list in a never-ending series of the multitude of forms of that which I call simply That-Which-Is-Out-There, or just the Great Out There for the fact that it is outside of our Selves, you  have probably also accepted the fact that among the other things one of the major ruling forces in the adept's lives becomes one that rules truly by an iron hand and which on the bodily level is interpreted as the tremble, a shake one gets when the intensity of perception is drastically raised. It is definitely a higher state of consciousness if you haven't wasted it on freaking out.

These special awe-inspiring states where artificially induced with the help of the musical instruments and body movements, incantations, power plants and power objects and where considered sacred by the adepts and shamans of old. These are the workings of the Great Out There, the force that is capable of disintegrating the personal self to which we have long been clinging, and even kill....Unless we except and deal with it through an intense process of learning, which is what the whole process is for!

During this special, sacred time one is truly checked for their wits and guts, their stamina and their patience, and indeed sees the "face of terror". While sounding somewhat cryptic and even archaic this may have been the point underlying many "shamanic" initiations as without this special awe-inspiring sense they would be just tasteless, like a good meal without its salt. It is that image and aspect of the Deity that is not nice, not pleasant, and does not play favorites. It equalizes the rich and poor under the same umbrella of fearsomeness and ruthlessness, which is also strangely enough -  love.

Indeed, if one is addicted to the sweetness of whatever it is, as Galina rightfully points out we are venerating only a part of a god, our own idea which is limited, not the God who is limitless. In order for a devotion to be true one has to embrace the sweet and the bitter, and the whatever else life may bring - it is all part of it! The underlying reality of worship is what is sometimes being referred to as "the mind and the eyes of god"  - it is a full merging of a personal and god consciousnesses. Of course that is easier said then done, but it is not impossible! We simply have to forget all that we learned, go to our roots, listen to our ancestors, take care of our personal history, do a little bit of daily practice or worship,
and so it happens.

That said, it is easy to fall into an extreme of thinking that whatever your mood, or personal inclination is at the moment - that is just it, that is the face of god. It is, and you may be right, but it is impermanent, it is transitional, and there is no need to be stuck on any one mood. Time passes, the night becomes young again, and the great Goddess of the Dawn will shine at your face as if saying, "Don't you worry kid - the world IS ruled by love".